Let's get on the same page really quick. I'm not trying to treat your friend as a nuisance-- I'm trying not to treat him as a weapon. This whole concept of otherwise independent people losing their identities just for the sake of someone with a god complex who's too much a coward to act themselves is distasteful to me. I don't want Kija doing what I tell him to do because he's supposed to, or something stupid like that. Ideally, he ought to be able to make his own choices. He could even act against me, if he thought that was best. God knows, my colleagues have thought so in the past.
Since that's not going to happen, then, I suppose I'll have to start taking his advice. The adjustment period might go on a little longer, however-- do forgive me.
There are too many men in the world who treat women the way I'd rather not treat your friend, so you don't have to worry about that, either. They'll always find me to be their enemy.
That's all fine and good, but you're missing something. Rather than selfishly telling yourself that you're doing a good thing by ignoring him, and that you're being forced into this, realize that you're in a partnership. It's forced on both sides. Pity isn't going to do anything for him or for you.
Don't use him as a weapon, but don't cast him aside, either. Think of it as an assigned partner and you'll do much better, I think.
[...'assigned partners.' So, teammates. What happened the last time he was part of a team, again...? Oh, right-- he tried to kill the rest of Weiss in exchange for... exactly what Kija has now, more or less.
Thank whatever gods aren't him that this is a text message, because the laughter that suggestion prompted was a little undignified.
It isn't Kija's or Jae-Ha's fault, he tells himself, that he is so damn incapable of functioning like a normal human being, let alone a god. It isn't Kija's fault that he needs something Youji has never been able to adequately give. Really, the screening process for gods had to be abysmally mediocre, if he got through.
And lord is he tired of not being able to justify himself; probably the easiest thing to do would be to just... concede it to Kija and start looking for missions. Prayers. Prayers.]
I do wonder, honestly, if the more unsettling aspects of being a shinki are lost on someone, when it's all they know. Probably it varies from person to person. I'm probably not going to stop being disturbed by it anytime soon.
But I will... hm. "Try harder" doesn't seem like a very honest thing to say, when I wasn't trying to begin with. I'll leave it at 'try' for now.
Most everyone is disturbed by it, whether it's all they know or not. Some handle it better than others, of course, but don't make the mistake of thinking that we shinki need your guidance and self-restraint to have better lives.
Try, please. I'll have to see how he's doing again later.
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Since that's not going to happen, then, I suppose I'll have to start taking his advice. The adjustment period might go on a little longer, however-- do forgive me.
There are too many men in the world who treat women the way I'd rather not treat your friend, so you don't have to worry about that, either. They'll always find me to be their enemy.
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Don't use him as a weapon, but don't cast him aside, either. Think of it as an assigned partner and you'll do much better, I think.
text;; sorry for the teal deer.
Thank whatever gods aren't him that this is a text message, because the laughter that suggestion prompted was a little undignified.
It isn't Kija's or Jae-Ha's fault, he tells himself, that he is so damn incapable of functioning like a normal human being, let alone a god. It isn't Kija's fault that he needs something Youji has never been able to adequately give. Really, the screening process for gods had to be abysmally mediocre, if he got through.
And lord is he tired of not being able to justify himself; probably the easiest thing to do would be to just... concede it to Kija and start looking for missions. Prayers. Prayers.]
I do wonder, honestly, if the more unsettling aspects of being a shinki are lost on someone, when it's all they know. Probably it varies from person to person. I'm probably not going to stop being disturbed by it anytime soon.
But I will... hm. "Try harder" doesn't seem like a very honest thing to say, when I wasn't trying to begin with. I'll leave it at 'try' for now.
text don't worry!
Try, please. I'll have to see how he's doing again later.
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At least the bar is set low already.